Every morning I basically follow the same routine. I get my kids up for school, help them pick out their clothes, do a load of laundry, get their bags together and get them out the door. Every morning I drive them to school and every morning I pass familys, together, walking their kids to school and every morning I end up in tears. This is the hardest part of all of this, I miss my family. We used to do things together, we used to enjoy each other and now its completely gone. How do I get past this? How do I pick these pieces up and move forward? The kids wish for it every day and I find them bringing up the past more and more. They like to talk about good times that we have all had together and I figure its just their way of dealing with all of this change. It's so hard and I just wonder if I will ever completely heal from losing what I thought I would have forever? I feel as though my heart has been broken into millions of little pieces, my life has been shattered. I never pictured myself as a single mom but reality sure hits hard when it hits doesnt it?
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